Not Yet Titled

by Erin-Elizabeth Tue Dec 09, 2014 12:54 am

I don't know exactly when I wrote this, but I was flipping through one of my old sketch books, and found this. I only know that it was written somewhere between 2008 and 2012, and I'm assuming that it was meant to be some sort of song. It's certainly bringing back a lot of memories...

Tears burning behind jade eyes,
I don't know what to do.
I'm hurting,
Struggling not to cry,
But I can't talk to you

'Cause you don't want to hear it
And you don't know how I feel.
It's in my head,
It's all my fault,
A wound I know won't heal.

I'm the girl who always seems to get it wrong.

Every time I think I'm right, I find I've missed it all along.

There's no one I can turn to;
They're all drifting away.
I reach out,
And I get shot down;
There's nothing more to say.

'Cause you don't want to help me
And you don't see why I cry.
You think I'm just a basket case;
That I don't even try.

I'm the one who always seems to take the blame.

You sit back and you watch me cry, 'cause i can't play your game.

This isn't what I wanted
For my life to be.
I don't know how to fix it,
And I can't break free

From fighting, and crying;
Letting everybody down.
I'm just one person,
I'm not perfect,
Don't ask me to be.